Im gonna hold on to the idea that I can have my cake and eat it too…i can.
The guy ive wanted for.4 yrs has finally grown.some.balls and has made things happen between.us…but of course its right when.i give up on us and my.prince finds me…aaand its just months before he.enlists with the army and goes away for 4 yrs…i know he doesnt want a gf while hes serving and.i.completely agree…but I want him…for.right now…hes amazing.
I have a prince charming who does everything to make me feel beautiful and secure and wanted. Hes everything I want…
but I dont think im ready…i still feel so.young…i dont want to quit smokeing…i dont like going home before midnight much less sleeping before midnight….there will be plenty of time for.sleep when im dead…the worst thing to me is for me to become boreing…i dont want the.boreing life with a boreing family being good.citizens…
Going from being single for 24 years to a serious relationship in a little over a month is a lot harder then youd think…i miss doing what I want when I want :/
im gonna have to start actually working at my job now…fuuuck i hate having a boss and rules and scheduels. fuck jobs.
“Playing the villain, baby, just like you want.”